Day 6: Love is Not Irritable
Wow, I’ve got to catch up here. Life goes by so quickly, it is sometimes hard to find time, alone, to blog. This dare really speaks to me. I am usually always running late or not allowing myself enough time to get the things done that I want to do. This in turn causes a lot of tension and frustration. And that causes heated words to be spoken. I like the sentence in this dare that says “but when love enters your heart, it calms you down and inspires you to quit focusing on yourself.” I consider that love to be Christ. For it is only through Him that I can truly love my spouse.
Lately, I have been spending much more time in prayer and scripture. This has made all the difference to me I believe. God is beginning to show me so many blessings that He has just been holding for me until I fully surrender to Him. I believe that my life will never be the same again. How can I go back into the prison of darkness that surrounded me once I’ve felt the warmth of the light?
The dare asks me to list places where I need to add margin. Wow, ummm, EVERYWHERE! Seriously. There isn’t a place in my life where I don’t feel hurried or rushed. Even now I sit here hoping to finish this blog quickly so I can finish getting ready for work and leave within 30 minutes. But my eyes are open to the fact that time can be our enemy or our friend. I am going to start making time my friend.
As far as the motivations for what I do, I can honestly say that currently I have no selfish motivations. My complete desire is to do the will of God in my life. He changed that part of me when this journey first began.
God, you have given me the hours in a day, the days in a week, the weeks in a month, and the months in a year. Help me to use this time most wisely so that I can spend more of it serving you. I am your servant Lord. Continue to change my heart so that there is no selfishness, no frustration, no confusion, but only Love. Your love. Through you, help me to love my husband again. Amen.