Day 19: Love is impossible
Love IS impossible! Today I have felt it. When I started this, maybe I thought it was going to be a quick fix. Boy was I wrong. My husband and I started this love dare together, and the last I heard he’s still on day 5. For a while I was really hurt, and I guess I kept going thinking, “I’ll show him” like it’s some kind of contest or something. That’s exactly what love isn’t. Maybe its impossible for us to do it together. So, I have been just going through the motions I guess. Exactly like Kirk Cameron in the movie. Going about my day as usual, doing the dare and not thinking much more about it. But today’s dare really struck home and reached my heart. I realized that this dare is not only about my husband and the promise I made to him, it is about the promise I made to God. So doing things just because the book tells me to is not going to work. I’m going to have try harder, really dig in and deal with the meaning of each dare, individually. Today I got down on my knees and prayed for the first time in a long time, and I just wept in the presence of the Lord. For a long time there were no words I could even say, I just let God minister to my spirit, and it was really powerful. He knows what we need before we even ask for it, isn’t God amazing?
November 20th, 2008 at 8:31 am
I read your post and even though I haven’t officially started the book (I should get it in a few days), your post really spoke to me. Thanks so much for your humility and brokenness before God. I will pray for you as I pray for myself. I want God to soften my heart before I start the book.